Sunday, January 1, 2012

...forced intoxication and what can happen else

...another session with Mistress Lilyan. Mistress keeps me in chastity scince a very long time now - she forced me to intoxicate myself and once i am really high the whole situation gets very dangerous. If I am lucky she only tortures me with anal beads or but plugs...oh and she loves things to be cleaned:) But there are situation she demands a lot of information which she can use for blackmailing. I can tell you guys be carefull if you like to be intoxicated.

I love Mistress Lilyan and I am very glad to be totaly her's.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

...a long torture by Mistress Lilyan

Mistress Lilyan ordered me for a very long sessions and lots of preparations bevor. I was very nervous about this sessions and totaly distracted the whole day at work. 1 hour bevor we started Mistress ordered me to take a viagra while I am in a chastity device locked up.  So the torture started allready bevor the session began. During the session Mistress, fucked my brain with poppers and liquor and my ass with anal plugs and beads. She had lots of fun wearing the strapon. In the end she rewarded me with a Vodka/Pee....
The Session was hard but I felt very close all the time. I really start falling in love with my Mistress.

Thank you a lot Mistress! Cant await our next session

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

...another long session wth my Mistress

I feel very close to my Mistress. I am in totaly submission and love to be. Next step I hope will be to sign a contract...

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

....another day without Mistress

After our last really long sessions, i realized how close i do feel to Mistress Lilyan now.... can't wait to see her again...

Sunday, October 30, 2011

...another torture from Mistrss Lilyan

Mistress ordered me to buy Viagra to take it right bevor our session where she keeps me in chastity.
I think this will be hardest session ever for me....

But Mistress knows whats good for me - so I follow...

Saturday, October 29, 2011

another day in chastity...

...just another day in chastity. Mistress keeps me in chastity scince ages now and she sees no reason to let me out. She traines me not to get horny by see just a woman - and what can I say, here training runs really good.


...back home to serve

I have not posted much lately. I have been in the U.S. with that chastity device on. On my flight back home during the security check - the guys realized that i wear this device. It was so emabarasing. I  needed to take it of and while I were doin this I was thinking of the punishment, Mistress would give me for.

One of my worsest moments ever.

Monday, September 26, 2011

...naked & locked up

Today it is my first session right now with Mistress Lilyan since ages...

Even after such a long time she said she will not let me cum today and make me sniff poppers like hell...

I feel exactly what I am - naked and locked up

In devotion

Monday, September 12, 2011

Chastity Device to wear for Mistress Lilyan

Today i received the chastity device and the number locks to be locked up for my Mistress - it make me feel very close to Mistress Lilyan.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

...to obey Mistress Lilyan

...I just ordered the CB2000 in order to obey Mistress Lilyan. I am not allowed to touch myslef without permission!

Back from vaction - craving for Mistress Lilyan



Since i met my Mistress the first time i became more and more addicted to her. I travel a lot and now I am back home and i am in hope to serve my Mistress again. There haven't been an hour the last 2 weeks where i did not think about my Mistress.
I will start documenting my feelings, wishes and weaknesses here to show my loyalty to my Mistress.

How I met Mistress Lilyan

About 2 month ago I met Mistress Lilyan. I was looking for a Mistress to be controlled by in long term.
I was not sure how Mistress Lilyan would be but i loved the pictures i saw and i liked her homepage very much which showed me that she would be a serious Mistress.
We arranged a first session and in this sessions already i realized how dominant Mistress Lilyan is. In a very short time Mistress Lilyan explored my weaknesses and made here advantage out of it. Did you guys know that Mistress Lilyan loves forced intoxication? :)
I started to get addicted to her which I am now.

I hope Mistress Lilyan will never dismiss me.